I’ve always considered myself a fit and healthy person despite the sedentary lifestyle (years of sitting behind a desk). After I got pregnant, I was so exhausted that I was not able to engage in any physical activity after work. After a complicated labor that left me completely drained physically and a 3-month parental leave, I happily returned to work, naively hoping to restore my life and prenatal body back.

But my body didn’t bounce back

Unfortunately, my body failed miserably to restore anything :). The chronic lack of sleep combined with stress from work and motherhood contributed to my zombie-like appearance but what was worse, something changed “down there”. At first I was hoping that me peeing my pants with every minor cough or sneeze with somehow miraculously change after 3 months, then 6 months then 9 months postpartum.

But nothing has changed, I was not able to run, nor jump, laugh, cough or shout without some incontinence,

I tried going to the gym but I felt something was not alright. I felt empty.  Despite me being already a certified personal trainer, I was NOT able to fix myself. I saw an internal physical therapist who prescribed kegels and sent me home after a 30-minute consultation not even wanting to see me again. My ob-gyn kindly explained that she herself was not able to resume running after her 2 kids so I should just get used wet pants, as well. Upsetting, right?

Then the headaches kicked in

Since I was a mother, my body was the last priority on the list, I kept waiting it out. When  my kid was about 4 years old I started coming home with persistent headaches until one day at 9 am I already felt the pressure on my temples. I was tired, in pain, frustrated with my body and completely devastated. It was so unfair!